I've been doing quite a bit of reflection recently. Life changes will have that effect.  I'm not the person I was a year ago.  There's a metamorphosis occurring.  For better or for not I don't know yet.  There are days that I feel so distant from who I was that it hurts.  I miss what I thought my life was. But it was an illusion and I'm rebuilding, reforming, making new connections, while trying to sort the best from my old life and retain them.  The instability leaves me falling occasionally. But I am strong and I recover.  One of the greatest discoveries I've made about myself in the last few years is just how strong I am.  No matter how many times I get knocked down I will get up again.
This past week has been one of those times.  But I set a new path for myself and my family.  Things I had put off for ridiculous reasons I have started on and will see them come to fruition in a few short months. I just need to keep my head down and ass up and I'll have it made. One thing that has not changed about me: if there is something that needs doing, there's no time like now to get started.  I only wish it was yesterday...