You're Hot and You're Cold

I am a hormonal emotional wreck looking for a place to happen.  It will be messy and sad and grim all at the same time.  I know it's coming so I'm avoiding public places in hopes to contain the mess.  The worst is that I know it's imminent but I also know it's unavoidable.  It's like the girl in horror movies in high heels who screams to let the monster know where she is and then runs.  Sigh ...